“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called the children of God! And that is what we are!” 1 John 3:1
A few weeks ago, my computer stopped working. It was in the “shop” for a total of 10 days. In the grand scheme of things, I realize this is not a big deal. I mean it’s not going to shift the world off of its axis or anything. But, to me, it was a bit of a trial.
See, I am almost always a little behind. I try, I really do, but something, somewhere always remains undone. I have a recurring nightmare in which I am trying to get something done and I am unable to do so, for one reason after another and, then, I wake up and I live that “nightmare.” O.K., maybe that’s a little dramatic, obviously, but, really, I struggle with trying to get everything “done.”
But, there I was unable to work on any of my work for my job at church and, of course, I could not work on my blog and I started to feel a little lost. Even without those responsibilities, I still had plenty to care for between my kids and my house. I thought, maybe I would “catch up” on my house chores while the computer was being fixed and I made some progress, but then, I got a bit of a stomach bug and spent two days on the couch.
I gotta be honest here—I started to feel completely and totally worthless, because I could not do anything. I just sat.
But, after a bit, God began to whisper to my soul and remind me I do not get my worth from what I do, but I have it from who I am, as His child. I don’t have to do anything to earn a place in His Kingdom, I am completely secure in my place there, because of what Jesus did on the cross.
At our church, we have this wonderful lady who has worked in the Children’s Department for many decades. She is well into her 90s now. She did the secretary work for many years, but can no longer do that. She comes now to sit and be with the kids. She doesn’t “do” anything. She just sits. And, you know what? She adds so much to the environment just by being there. Just by sitting and being who she is and being among us. The kids say good morning to her and give her hugs and if she misses a week, she is missed. Not because of what she does, but because of who she is. What a beautiful picture she creates to remind us our worth not about what we do!
As for me, God is trying to teach me something about worth. It’s a struggle I have had for many years and He is speaking to my heart about it lately. I hope now that I am back to my normal schedule of trying to get it all done, I can remember it’s really about being His child, first and foremost, and not about a totally completed check list—not that I’m completely sure what one of those actually looks like, mind you. But, I am sure what I look like to my Heavenly Father and how He loves me simply for being His.
Simply for being His.
That’s all. That’s where my worth comes from and where it has always come from, since the day I asked Him to save me. I am His and it is and has always, always been enough.
Takes a bit of the pressure off, no? Ah, praise the Lord for that!
Precious Heavenly Father, I thank You that You call me Yours. You say I am Your child and You love me simply because of that. What an amazing honor that is. Lord, help me to see my worth in who You say I am and to reject the thought that I have worth from what I do. I know in my heart that is not true, but I still get tripped up by feeling worthless when I can’t perform the way I’d like. Lord, most of all, please help me to focus on You and what you have done, my Lord. Thank You for continuing to teach me and grow me into one who looks more like You. Oh, Lord, please don’t every stop. Amen
P.S.: I love this song as an amazing reminder of our worth: