In Pursuit of Worth

“My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;I shall not be moved.
In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength, And my refuge, is in God.”

“Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us.”

Psalm 62:5-8

Do you feel worthy? I mean, you hear that message all the time, right? You deserve it. You are worthy. But, do you really believe you are?

I don’t.

I haven’t felt worthy since I was 7 or 8 years old. I have felt less than, never enough, like I didn’t measure up. Ever. This has probably been the greatest source of pain in my life and has been at the route of much of what I have done or not done over the years. It has colored absolutely everything in my life and, quite frankly, I am a little sick of it!

Now, we could do some psychoanalyzing to look into why I feel unworthy. You could also try to spend some time trying to convince me of my worth, but both of those things would be incredibly big wastes of time. Because this is really not about external factors. It is a lie I have believed about myself for decades and it has polluted every part of my life. No, external things can’t change this.

Praise the Lord, though there is something, or Someone, internal that can. The Holy Spirit. He lives inside of me and I believe He is calling me to find my worth, not in myself and my own abilities or in any way this world we live in measures worth, but, through the lens of being God’s amazing creation and His precious child.

I know myself and I know I am just stubborn enough (O.K. I am very stubborn) that this is going to be a journey, not a short trip. Every good trip needs good company, so I would like to invite you along with me as I set out in the pursuit of worth. Over the next year, I am going to be digging into God’s Word to see what God says about my worth.

I will also be sharing insights about finding worth in the Lord as I go along, because I suspect there are many who need to combat this same lie in their lives. I am exited about the changes God is going to make in my life and I hope He will bless yours along the way as well.

O.K., now, who is with me? Let’s go!

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